A place for my head
I watch how the moon sits in the sky
on a dark night shining with the light from the sun
the sun doesn´t give light to the moon
assuming the moon´s going to owe it one
it makes me think of how you act to me
you do favours and then rapidly
you just turned around and start asking me about
things you want back from me
[Nakarat]
I´m sick of the tension, sicck of the hunger
sick of you acting like I owe you this
find another place to feed your greed
while I find a place to rest
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don´t understand
( you´ll see it´s not meant to be )
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
a place for my head
maybe someday I´ll be just like you, and
step on people like you do and
run away the people I thought I knew
I remember back then who you were
you used to be calm, used to be strong
used to be generous, but you should´ve known
that you´d wear out your welcome
now you see how quiet it is, all alone
[Nakarat] ( x2 )
you try to take the best of me
go away ( x8 )
[Nakarat] ( x2 )
By myself
What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give into sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness?
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself (myself!)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself (myself!)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I turn my back I'm defenseless
and to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me till everything is gone
If I let them go then I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
By myself (myself!)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself (myself!)
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
How do you think
I've lost so much
I'm so afraid
I'm out of touch
How do you expect
I will know what to do
When all I know
Is what you tell me to
Don't you (know)
I can't tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I can't seem to convince myself (why)
I'm stuck on the outside (x2)
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all to much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all to much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
Crawling
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling I can’t seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence
I’m convinced that it’s too much pressure to take
I’ve felt this way before
So insecure
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It’s haunting how I can’t seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence
I’m convinced that it’s too much pressure to take
I’ve felt this way before
So insecure
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing, confusing what is real
There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing what is real
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling, confusing what is real